Nicaragua 2014: A second chance
My bag is packed, I have taken my first dose of anti-malarial pills, and I am finishing season 3 of Grey's Anatomy as I type this. (What? I can't leave for a week in middle of a season. That's just wrong.) This trip is really happening!
On a serious note now:
I have been so stressed about having enough clothes packed and making sure I have enough things in my backpack in case my luggage gets lost. But I don't seem to be as nervous as my brain keeps trying to tell me I am. And that may not make sense, but I normally feel sick to my stomach when I am nervous, and I am feeling pretty good.
To be quite honest I think I haven't been allowing myself to get excited because I am scared of being disappointed. I do not want to get this idea of how I think things are going to be because, well, I am traveling to a third world country... And I really have no idea what it's going to be like. Anybody that knows me well, knows that deciding to go on this trip was a big step for me. Josh went two years ago and I had the option to go but I didn't. Wanna know why? I was scared. That is the ONLY reason I didn't go. How silly. God does not call us to live our lives on the couch, remember? He does not call us to live lives of comfort. Even if you aren't a spiritual person I am sure you can relate to not wanting to waste your life. And that is what I feel like I have been doing in the grand scheme of things. I essentially do live my life on the couch. I have missed out on a lot of things because I am scared of a lot of things. But it is finally time that I start doing what God calls me to do. And that includes the scary things. God basically placed a trip to Nicaragua in my lap two years ago and I said no. But He was gracious enough to give me a second chance!
I will say I am totally ready for God to use me on this trip and am prepared for Him to take me (and keep me) out of my comfort zone if that is what He wants. I'm taking no makeup, no hair dryer, no cell phone, no kindle, no wallet-just some cash and a passport! This is really going to be something new and different for me. I am taking a journal and I will try my best to document every feeling I have while I am there- both good and bad. And I can't wait to share those feelings with you all when I return!
On a serious note now:
I have been so stressed about having enough clothes packed and making sure I have enough things in my backpack in case my luggage gets lost. But I don't seem to be as nervous as my brain keeps trying to tell me I am. And that may not make sense, but I normally feel sick to my stomach when I am nervous, and I am feeling pretty good.
To be quite honest I think I haven't been allowing myself to get excited because I am scared of being disappointed. I do not want to get this idea of how I think things are going to be because, well, I am traveling to a third world country... And I really have no idea what it's going to be like. Anybody that knows me well, knows that deciding to go on this trip was a big step for me. Josh went two years ago and I had the option to go but I didn't. Wanna know why? I was scared. That is the ONLY reason I didn't go. How silly. God does not call us to live our lives on the couch, remember? He does not call us to live lives of comfort. Even if you aren't a spiritual person I am sure you can relate to not wanting to waste your life. And that is what I feel like I have been doing in the grand scheme of things. I essentially do live my life on the couch. I have missed out on a lot of things because I am scared of a lot of things. But it is finally time that I start doing what God calls me to do. And that includes the scary things. God basically placed a trip to Nicaragua in my lap two years ago and I said no. But He was gracious enough to give me a second chance!
I will say I am totally ready for God to use me on this trip and am prepared for Him to take me (and keep me) out of my comfort zone if that is what He wants. I'm taking no makeup, no hair dryer, no cell phone, no kindle, no wallet-just some cash and a passport! This is really going to be something new and different for me. I am taking a journal and I will try my best to document every feeling I have while I am there- both good and bad. And I can't wait to share those feelings with you all when I return!
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” -Joshua 1:9
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